Been a bit since updating. Stresses got the best of me, and I asked to pause from chastity for a bit. It was one more thing going on along with many others and I was mentally ready to break. I think she was hurt by my asking, and it didn't dawn on me that it would hurt her. She thought it meant I didn't trust her for that aspect of our life, but that isn't the case at all. I just needed a break.
This week was tough at work too. All the stresses added up to my mind and I was making mistakes everywhere and couldn't wrap my mind around anything. Everything was a blur. So I needed to let go. Asked to be locked back up, and taken in to her control, and have her take me to my happy place mentally sub wise.
And she did a magnificent job of it. The entire scene was the best I can recall. Partially because it let me let go of my stresses, and right my mind. She knew when to push me, when to feed on my pain. The way she grabbed my head and shoved the dildo down, every time she walked by my face I instinctively picked my head up and opened my mouth.
And that helped me cope. Put me in a much better place mentally. Stayed locked up last night, and she's let me out for valentine's day. After tonight I have no problem giving her the control back and being locked back up.
