Saturday, December 27, 2014

Holy Trainer 2 thoughts

This thing is way more comfortable than the old cage.  Though she's gonna want to use the other some times, and well it's her decision.   After lugging the cheap one around, this thing feels weightless.   Have normal size, with a 40 mm ring.  Fits well, though some how a ball slipped out on Christmas Day, still not sure how.   Morning wood is pretty painful at this time



I have had some pretty intense orgasms the last few days, she keeps letting me out.  Though she makes it clear it's her cock.  And I know I'll be locked up for a week soon as Flo is coming to town and she's made it perfectly clear that I'm to be locked up during that time.  Which will be longest time
We've gone.

Christmas was wonderful, I got to cum while fucking her as my present.  In a condom, but still got to enjoy it.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas all.   We got our present in today.   Holy Trainer 2, black.   Full update to come after Christmas.




Sunday, December 21, 2014

Wow

Sometimes it's hard to describe how incredible things are.  Literally nothing about tonight's session was sexual.  She made it clear she wasn't in the mood, made it clear I wasn't getting off.  Yet this was one of the most pleasurable experiences of my life.
Locked and no hope
An interesting dynamic I learned, well, learned is a funny word.  I learned to trust.  Tonight was a "symbolic" ability to trust that she knows well for me.  She had absolutely no interest in pleasuring herself, or me sexually.  But, she knew I enjoyed, and earned a reward. She hit me pretty hard with the flogger.

Afterwords, a pretty deep conversation in my mind occurred.  I,  I enjoy, and derive pleasure from being tortured, and being put in to sub space.  She, when she wants it, needs, but not necessarily wants or enjoys the pain and being put in to sub space.

Like, I enjoyed it a lot.  And she knows that.   And was willing to take me there, her interest, or lack of it, or anything in between.

And she knows I can go further.



Saturday, December 20, 2014

My introductions to BDSM

One thing I love about our relationship is that for the first time ever, I feel free.  As in I've never felt able to freely discuss my desires, wants, fantasies and such.  She and I are able to openly talk about these, and not feel ashamed, scared, or unwilling to discuss anything free of fear of repulsing, scaring or weirding out one another.  Though it has taken me time to learn this.

She has lots more experience in bdsm than I.  Coming in to this relationship, she had past relationships enjoying bottoming in bdsm.  She really enjoyed getting whipped, used, and spanked etc.   A few times I have witnessed how much she enjoys it, and wish to give her that when she desires and needs it.

So she used her knowledge of that world and has slowly brought me to enjoy, no want to be beaten.  She's taken me to places I never thought existed, and she really enjoys taking me there, I've gotten the pleasure of seeing how wet it makes her.
Our last session downstairs.

So she now, as she puts it, can't use beating, spanking, whipping as a punishment, but as a reward.  So tonight I've earned a reward for being good, and she, quite good at it, will continue to push my limits tonight, and have me worked up.

Now, the downside to not being able to punish me physically is that she's determined that the only way to punish me for being bad is orgasm denial.  And quite honestly, the threat of extended denial is a strong one for me at this stage of my sexual desires.

She's also extending my lock up times.  Typically 3 days at a  time, though I know longer stretches are coming.  We both enjoy it so much that a new device is coming.  Will update when it arrives.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Amusement

I often find it interesting what amuses her.  She's found her favorite thing in the world in the first week of this adventure.  She found she really enjoys ruining my orgasms.  Weird how the mind works.  For the better part of our relationship, she enjoyed it every time I got off, the way I moaned, let out exasperated breaths.

But now, maybe it's the new found dominant side she's found, now she loves the way I moan as I get close, then whine and get sad when she takes the orgasm away from me.

Don't get me wrong.  I absolutely enjoy the time she spends working me up.  She spends a long while teasing me in the cage.  Then that moment she takes it off, kind of reminds me of tv and movies when someone removes handcuffs how they rub their wrists, the moment it comes off and the sensation it brings.  And she plays with me, getting me leaking all over the place.

And then, just as I'm screaming in pleasure, announcing the impending rush of my seed, she stops.  Often I don't finish all the way, and beg her that there's more to come, knowing she won't let me enjoy it.  Admittedly I walk around unhappy and sad for a bit.  That's an interesting feeling, one that she's amused and I'm not.

This is the first defined period of lock up I've had.  It's only two days, well almost three as when time is up I'll be in work mode.  And this is the first time that she hasn't played with or teased me while in lock up.  Can't wait to be released, and strangely, can't wait to see what she has after.

Please do leave comments and questions if you wish.  This is a journey that I'm kind of feeling my way through.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Initial thoughts

So we have been playing with this chastity game for 6 days now.   It seems we both like it.  Her, she loves it.    We bought a cheap metal jailbird style cage off amazon.   It's way too big.   But , after first evening, it's not uncomfortable.


First night she put it on and teased the hell out of me.   Then let me take it off to sleep.  Second night, put it on and had to wear it all night before getting let out for work.   Third night wore it all night and all day at work.   Fourth day was in it all day and she let me out to play in our basement.  She tied me up laying face up on our table used for our play times.   Teased and stroked and used vibrating wandGot me all worked up and then ruined my orgasm.  Very frustrating.   Spent the rest of the evening locked back up and she whipped my ass and I greatly enjoyed how she pushed me.   She did too, as she was super turned on, after I came out of sub space,

All I wanted was to sleep and be held.  I think she was frustrated with that.  But she let me out the next morning and let me fuck her.   I came hard.    Though the affects of not enjoying an orgasm for 5 days left my stamina pretty low and only lasted a couple minutes.  Locked back up, in bed now on day six of this adventure, day one on this lock up, while she sleeps.  I think the goal of this blog is to share my thoughts on the journey.  Will update periodically.